Al(l)-one

Writing from the corner of 3rd floor of Sabah State Library Tanjung Aru.

Today's entry is Al(l)-one. 

Al(l)-one = A 1x1 = 1 = Al, -one

Al -one, All subtracted by one means = We are the one who subtracts ourselves from majority, depending on our own selves.

Al(l)-one = All one= The works of working ourselves are our own selves.

Alone.

For a moment, i feel how calming and free sitting here. I took out the airpod and plug it. Owl & Wolf by The Sigit never disappoint me in boosting to the mood where i need to be. And this is my most favourite one from album Detourn. To be alone like this and wasting my time the way i wanted it, is a heaven for me. Speaking about being alone, not everyone can do that. Some says, some people are alone because they do not have friends or do not know how to make friends, etcetera etcetera... Hence, the stigma of understanding being alone is really "alone" prevent oneself to unlock the fear to try being alone. When the reality and the meaning of being alone is much more free when you understand it deeply, philosophically. Let me tell you what being alone is really like. Individually, you have a better view of yourself, mission and vision. You will be able to understand yourself, you will be able to give yourself more room to think, to have a reflection, you will be able to think what you want to do and how you want to live. And the most important thing, you have the freedom. This kind of freedom is not a kind of freedom like a freedom of speech or what. The freedom of being alone is the freedom of having yourself as yourself. You understand yourself wholly, by means of that, any form of distraction that trigger your emotions will slowly become nothing to you, you will either take it as a step-up transformer or as a paradigm shift. Everything you receive from people, you will transform it as an input, no matter how bad it takes, at the end of the day you will always have the positive outcome. 

Surely being alone is not about alienating yourself because you hate other people without reason. You accept your being and other people being and you celebrate the distinction amongst human being, you accept the fact that you and other people have different way of thinking, different way of perceiving meanings. Therefore, by understanding the theory, nothing actually could make you blow a fuse. 

"Does it matter? Does it matter?"...Only loneliness keeps us alive" - Ring of Fire, The Sigit.

Thus, we are responsible for our own emotions. How you handle it yourself. You can't expect people to be a mind reader and understand you. When we feel sad or angry, we felt like people are responsible for making us feel those emotions, on the other hand, it is us who are responsible to take it as a thing that makes us burst into tears or makes us think. Take it or leave it, like what Julian Casablancas told me, lol. You have control over how you would perceive things, but not the people and the words they chose to say, especially, how they want to think.

We often afraid of people's impression toward us. When the thing that makes the impression exist are only you, telling your mindset whether it's a fact or not. 

"I am not what happened to me, I am what I choose to become."- Carl Jung